Oops...
Kinda skipped a couple of days. Well, at least I got TWO posts in a row...
All that needs to be said is that James came up Saturday, went to see Jim Breuer, slept on Sam's couch while Mike and Shannon were in our room NOT having sex ('Til Marriage' kinda girl), got up, did homework, went to Wesley for Sunday dinner, James came back to watch the Oscars with us, went to Sam's room, then went back to the room to find...
...a sock on the door...
FUCKING HELL!!!
Second time in a row I'm kicked out of my room. A bit annoying really, especially since I'm banished to my couch from all of that NOT love-making they are doing.
When I saw it, I went straight in to Total Douchebag Mode. I let the door slam, I went up to our door, knocked loudly, then opened the door, got my alarm clock, made a few mean, yet "subtle" comments (although, if you know me when I'm upset, 'subtle' is just me sounding extremely annoyed, but never directly saying it), walked out, said, "goodnight", and threw the sock on Mike's bed.
It made me feel a bit better about the situation. Then, I got shoes on and went to McD's. A manager there was supposed to send me a Letter of Recommendation, but the guy ended up going on VACATION, so he kinda flaked out on me a bit. What's worse is the letter and stuff is due FRIDAY! AAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!
And now, I'm under the impression that Val is wanting me to come over during Spring Break. This is kinda sticking me in a hard place, though. Sam and I aren't together. We're just kinda seeing each other a bit. There is no exclusivity between us. The problem doesn't lie in me contemplating whether or not it's justified to sleep with Val. Quite the opposite, in fact...
I DON'T want to sleep with her, at all...because of Sam...
Right now, we're doing things that normal couples would do, but I get the feeling that while she's comfortable with it, she's feeling awkward at the same time. A relationship is not what she wants. Not to say she's just using me and going to throw me away the second she sees another potential boy, but there's nothing stopping her from seeing other people. I'm slowly realizing that not only do I feel some kind of quasi-obligation to not see Val...but I could care less about other members of the opposite sex. I like her...and she doesn't want serious things to happen...and I'm going to get hurt: the warnings she gave me before any of this started.
Aww shit...
I'm really unsure what to do. She's planning on going to Canada with James and me over Break, and right now she has so much stress on her shoulders from schoolwork that I'd feel bad about adding anymore to it, especially since I'm one of the few things right now that's keeping her sane. So, it's looking like I just postpone confronting her about it for a while and just pretend everything is fine.
Great...
Simon
All that needs to be said is that James came up Saturday, went to see Jim Breuer, slept on Sam's couch while Mike and Shannon were in our room NOT having sex ('Til Marriage' kinda girl), got up, did homework, went to Wesley for Sunday dinner, James came back to watch the Oscars with us, went to Sam's room, then went back to the room to find...
...a sock on the door...
FUCKING HELL!!!
Second time in a row I'm kicked out of my room. A bit annoying really, especially since I'm banished to my couch from all of that NOT love-making they are doing.
When I saw it, I went straight in to Total Douchebag Mode. I let the door slam, I went up to our door, knocked loudly, then opened the door, got my alarm clock, made a few mean, yet "subtle" comments (although, if you know me when I'm upset, 'subtle' is just me sounding extremely annoyed, but never directly saying it), walked out, said, "goodnight", and threw the sock on Mike's bed.
It made me feel a bit better about the situation. Then, I got shoes on and went to McD's. A manager there was supposed to send me a Letter of Recommendation, but the guy ended up going on VACATION, so he kinda flaked out on me a bit. What's worse is the letter and stuff is due FRIDAY! AAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!
And now, I'm under the impression that Val is wanting me to come over during Spring Break. This is kinda sticking me in a hard place, though. Sam and I aren't together. We're just kinda seeing each other a bit. There is no exclusivity between us. The problem doesn't lie in me contemplating whether or not it's justified to sleep with Val. Quite the opposite, in fact...
I DON'T want to sleep with her, at all...because of Sam...
Right now, we're doing things that normal couples would do, but I get the feeling that while she's comfortable with it, she's feeling awkward at the same time. A relationship is not what she wants. Not to say she's just using me and going to throw me away the second she sees another potential boy, but there's nothing stopping her from seeing other people. I'm slowly realizing that not only do I feel some kind of quasi-obligation to not see Val...but I could care less about other members of the opposite sex. I like her...and she doesn't want serious things to happen...and I'm going to get hurt: the warnings she gave me before any of this started.
Aww shit...
I'm really unsure what to do. She's planning on going to Canada with James and me over Break, and right now she has so much stress on her shoulders from schoolwork that I'd feel bad about adding anymore to it, especially since I'm one of the few things right now that's keeping her sane. So, it's looking like I just postpone confronting her about it for a while and just pretend everything is fine.
Great...
Simon
posted by Simon at 12:37 AM
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