Ugh...

Why is it that I thought that I could win over the girl who wanted to only sleep with me? I mean, yeah, we did all these things that were couple-worthy, but really, it was just about having someone to lay with at the end of the night.

It was pretty obvious. I mean, hell, I noticed! I just hoped that I was just being a dumb, paranoid guy and I'd be able to not be hurled back to The Friend Zone like every other freakin' time. It's really starting to get ridiculous.

Is it so much to ask that I find someone smart, cute, funny, single, and feels the same way about me (or at least doesn't have so much fucking baggage that it somehow interferes with the whole process)?! I know I'm prolly not the best catch, but I see girls obsessed with guys who I tend to label as "Total Douchebag," or the girl just has a better chance of winning the lottery AND getting struck by lightning, and I wonder when people can open their fucking eyes and see that there's people like me who are dying for a chance to be noticed as a possible candidate. I mean, I can only see me in a mirror. Is there some quality about that isn't likable? Maybe it's how my first girlfriend put it when she broke up with me: "It's me AND you!"

I dunno. It's always bugged me, but when I was with her...I was happy. The hanging out all the time and doing things couples did was all a mere illusion, but I really enjoyed having someone there. I felt really comfortable.

But I guess that's just the way it goes. She's moving on...to the boy on her floor...who already has a girlfriend...

*eye twitch*

Simon